So I've been dealing with a lot of anxiety lately. Going back to school and being here full time has really taken a toll on me. I'm talking to the point where I can't sleep even when I'm exhausted and even have had some spells where I can feel my heart pounding and have trouble breathing. It's not cool. I'm trying to deal with it naturally because I really do not want to be on another pill or have to go to another doctor. Sometimes I feel like thats all I do.
So part of trying to do deal with this is learning to let things go. And by this, I mean a number of things. For one, I get so overwhelmed with what I have to do. I have 3 not-so-easy, and very fast paced classes this quarter. I have homework in all of them almost every night. Plus when I get home I want to spend time with my boys, get the house clean, get dinner cooked, and everything I would normally be doing if I wasn't in school. I'm learning that the dishes and laundry can wait, dinner doesn't have to be a 3 course meal, and sometimes even the homework can be put off for a bit. I need to also start relying on hubby more to help around the house. He will clean and cook, not always when I want him to though..but in his own time he gets the stuff done. I need to remind myself of that. I am learning that I need to just let it go and let it wait till tomorrow. The world is not going to come to an end if the dishes aren't put away tonight!
I also am learning that I need to let go of some bad habits I have. These, I feel, are also contributing to my anxiety. For one, I am horribly addicted to mountain dew. I drink it every morning and usually throughout the day too. It's basically my coffee and keeps me going strong through the day. But it has tons of sugar in it and lots of caffeine and I know its taking a toll on my health. For one my teeth have gotten really bad since I started drinking it, and I feel sure it has something to do with the pounding heart issue I've been having too. So I'm trying to cut back on it for now, to just one glass a day, and eventually quit all together. Another bad habit I have is since I don't sleep well at night, I take a sleeping pill almost every night. I know that is not good for me either so I'm hoping with the cutting back on the dew, I won't need as much help getting to sleep and I can stop that too.
So yea, thats my goals for now to get this anxiety under control. Hopefully they will work and I won't have to see a doctor. I'll keep you updated. Thanks for listening! :)