We've all had em' right?! Well I think I had the meltdown of all meltdowns last night! And it really didn't have all that much to do with Noah. But omg is was the worst meltdown yet!
It started when I was working on my accounting homework and couldn't figure it out. Brian couldn't figure it out either so I flip and just start completely questioning why I even bother with all this school! My whole schedule has been flipped around. I went from getting up when Noah's up to getting up an hour and a half earlier. I went from seeing Noah all day, every day to seeing him only in the evening for a few hours. I went from having time to keep the house clean and organized and still have time to chill and spend time with the boys. So I just broke down! Crying my eyes out and everything! Brian finally got me calmed down and we went to bed. Well..I couldn't sleep. So I broke down again. I was just so stressed and had so much anxiety built up! So I went downstairs and started working on that stupid accounting problem again! Crazy, I know!
Well of course my sweet hubby got out of bed and came down to help me relax and talk to me. Finally after a nice long talk, I calmed down and was able to go to sleep. I don't really know what happened, other than I just let everything build up and stress me out to the max. I hold on to things, and I'm a perfectionist. So when I can't get everything done and I can't figure out stupid math problems, it gets to me. I guess that's what most people call anxiety and Brian thinks I should at least get checked out for it. But I really don't want to be on another pill. I feel like I'm a freakin pharmacy!
So with that said, I am definately on the lookout for better ways to relieve stress and natural ways to get rid of my anxiety! I need to work better with my time management and just learn to let things go! If you have any tips for me let me know! Once I figure out some good ways to relieve stress I'm going to write a blog post on it! :)