So I've made an appointment to see a doctor about my anxiety. I didn't want to but after last night I can't take it anymore. I have an appointment tomorrow afternoon, and hubby is coming with me. I really hope it goes well and I can find some ways to relieve some of this stress and anxiety.
I feel like my brain is just a completely different part of me sometimes. And it just won't shut off! This has been my last 24 hours..according to my mind...lol.
6pm- Omg I am so exhausted ...hope I make it long enough to get Noah to bed and then I am going to bed asap!
9pm- going to bed ...maybe I can actually get some good rest if I go now and maybe I won't be exhausted all day tomorrow for once (went to bed without a sleeping pill btw)
2am- Ugh hubby turn off your alarm! Ugh too late I'm already awake. Oh well its ok..I can go back to sleep...I have 4.5 more hrs to sleep if I go back to sleep now. I'll be ok.
3am- Ugh why does this always happen to me! Ok I just need to relax....I'm fine..I'll still get enough sleep to be fine tomorrow. Just relax Michelle. Just relax.
4am- Omg this is so ridiculous! Why does this keep happening?! Ugh I hear my heart beating again...ugh now I can't breathe good. Dang Michelle just chill out! Stop freaking out!!!
5am- In tears! Ugh why does this always happen to me?! Screw it! I'm skipping class tomorrow and sleeping in! There's no way I can function like this. I have to get up in an hr and I've been up since two!! I'm crazy...losing my mind! I have to go to the dr tomorrow. I can't do this anymore!! What is wrong with me?!
5:30am- Finally back asleep!
6:30am- alarm goes off. Ugh how am I going to do this. I'll just take Noah to the sitter, skip my first class and sleep. And drink lots of dew today to make it!!
8:30am- ugh I dont' have enough time to sleep now..oh well..guess I'll feel like crap all day. Ugh. ..have to make an appointment today
I went through school...exhausted..didn't drink as much dew as I planned..hoping to sleep tonight. I'm soooo exhausted!!! Hopefully I can get some answers tomorrow! Now ya'll can see how crazy I really am haha!!