Wednesday, September 19, 2012
Breastfeeding - When It's Not Always Fun
So Isaac will be 10 months old tomorrow. Time has been flying! We are still breastfeeding and it's been great! We haven't really had any problems to deal with thus far. But I've been struggling a bit with it for the past few months. I hope I don't get flamed for this but here goes nothing.
Isaac is VERY attached to me. In fact that is an understatement. If I'm anywhere around he only wants me to hold him, pick him up, feed him, etc. If I'm not around he cries pretty much the entire time I'm away for whoever is watching him, including his own daddy. At first I thought it was just separation anxiety but if it is it's been going on for over 5 months! Part of that is anytime he gets upset or tired or anything is bothering him whatsoever, he wants to comfort nurse. Which is all fine I guess, except for when he's doing it all day long. And then if I don't nurse him right when he wants it he screams bloody murder until I do nurse him. It get's exhausting.
I nurse him on demand, but that turns out to be 6 or more times a day. And he's not nursing for like 20 minutes at a time to get his belly full every time. It's like a minute or two here, then twenty minutes later for another minute or two, then when brother knocks him down and he's upset he wants to nurse for another minute or two. And like I said earlier..he screams until he gets it. I always said I wanted to let him self wean but when lately I feel like I'm over it. And that sounds so terrible when I read what I just wrote but it's honestly how I feel right now! Every time someone else watches him, even for just a little while, he cries almost the whole time for them. So I don't even get much of a break to re-energize and re-focus. It's hard.
I love breastfeeding and I know it's what's best for him. It's been great and I will continue to nurse him until he is at least a year old. So I guess this is more of a vent than anything. It's not always easy. And it's not always the pain that's tough. Sometimes it can just be straight up exhausting.
Have you every had a period of time when your little one wanted to nurse all day long or comfort nursed a lot? What did you do? Any tips, suggestions, thoughts are very appreciated!