I'm going crazy right about!

It's been five hrs since Noah woke up and he's refusing to nap. I can't get anything done. I'm exhausted myself. I just want to cry. I'm not going to get to go out tonight...hell we might not even get to go trick or treating if he keeps this up. And of course not one damn person to babysit or give me a break. I hate the weekends sometimes. Oh, happy halloween, hope yours is better than mine.

Mad!

Sometimes it is really fn hard to be a mama. Like I love Noah, and he's such a blessing and my life is nothing without him. But Gah its so hard sometimes to sacrifice the things I wanna do. Like Halloween is saturday and I got invited to go out with some friends. I want to go soooooo bad! But of course Noah's grandparents still think they are young and are going out too and Brian has to go to work and so I once again have to sit my ass at home while everyone else it out and do nothing. Ugh! Why can't I just have one night of fun! Alone! If there's one thing I miss pre-baby its having the freedom to come and go as I please! Man I miss that!

I'm Such a Proud Mama!

Noah did so good at his 6 month checkup today. The nurse said she had an 8 month old that wouldn't even hold his own bottle yet. Noah is so advanced and learning something new every day. He took the shots like such a little tough guy. He stopped crying as soon as daddy picked him up. I just can't get over how amazing he is. I'm so proud of him. I've never been proud of myself but I sure am proud we created such a beautiful child. He's so amazing. Ok sorry for all the mushy, what can I say, he's precious!

Ahh Sleep!

Noah's been sleeping really good the past two nights and not waking up till almost 8 instead of the normal 6:30 or 7. I love it! Makes me feel so good to get that extra hour of sleep. I hope he keeps it up.

Feeling down lately...

Everything gets me so down lately. I'm so tired of being stuck in the house all the time. We never have any money to do anything. I'm so tired of having to rely on other people for things we need. I'm so sick of getting irritated at Brian for things I know is not his fault. I complain like this but then I don't want to get a job and leave Noah. So I'm basically being a hypocrite. It's just so hard. I want to be able to have the money to buy things for him and do things for him. I just miss when things were easy.

6 months-Good god what happened?!

Noah is 6 months today! It literally feels like we just brought him home! Like I seriously can't figure out where the time went! Makes me sad cuz I know time is just gonna fly by even faster as he gets older. :(

It's way to damn early!

So its 7:30 and Noah's been up since 6. Which is fine and dandy but Brian's up too. But of course its impossible for me to get any extra sleep because he doesn't hear Noah wake up and by the time I get up to get him and Brian wakes up I'm already awake and it takes at least an hour for me to fall back asleep. Grrr. I better get a nap today! haha yea right!

Down with the Sickness!

So we've all had a cold this weekend. Noah got it first for like a day, then I got it, then Brian. Noah got over it really fast. Me not so much. So I'm exhausted as it is and I feel like shit. Well Noah decides to wake up at 5am this morning and not want to go back to sleep. Grrr. Like I love the kid, but really. Why does he always decide to wake up early on the days I really really wanna sleep. It's so hard not to get pissed off at him as he's giggling and climbing all over the place and all I want to do is sleep. My head was pounding so hard. Then he starts screaming bloody murder! Omg that is the most awful sound to hear at 5am with a horrible headache! I was really starting to go crazy! So I fix him a bottle and he eats it, but still doesn't want to go back to sleep. So I just put him in his crib and leave him. Thank the Lord above, he went back to sleep about 10 min later. And slept for 2 more hours. And luckily I feel much better today. I love to cuddle and I love the sweet giggles and happy baby, but just not at 5am!!

Give me Kisses!

Noah is so cute! I taught him how to give me kisses! If I say "give me kisses" He will grab my face and give me a big, wet, opened mouth kiss! It's absolutely adorable! He even did it to Brian today. I will have to get a video so that ya'll will believe me. Gah, I've got the cutest kid!

Recap!!

So I'm starting a bit late. I've been a mommy for 6 months already! And a newlywed for 7 months! So I'll recap the world on my crazy life as a mom and wife! (haha love how that rhymes!)

So I met Brian in April/May of 2008. We started dating like 2 weeks after we met and were living together like a week after dating. In August I found out I was pregnant. We weren't doing a single thing to prevent it so it wasn't that much of a suprise. His fam was super excited, mine not so much, but after a while it grew on them and they became excited too.

We already had names picked out and on Dec. 16 we found out we were having a boy. So right away we knew we were having a Noah Allen. We were both super excited.

On March 6, 2009 Brian and I got married in the courthouse in Lexington. Only his mom was their ( she invited herself) and she took pics. It took all of 10 min to get married. Then we went to Atlanta for our 3 day honeymoon. We went to the zoo, the aquarium and all over Atl. It was perfect.

On April 22, I gave birth to little Noah Allen after 22 hrs of labor. He was perfect. 6lbs 4oz and seriously came out smiling haha. We brought him home 3 days later and life really began. The first night we didn't sleep at all. My milk hadn't come in yet and little guy was hungry! So every half hr or so he woke up wanting more. It was a long night.

Now Noah is almost 6 months old! He's sitting up, almost crawling, eating babyfood, and has two teeth! It's amazing how fast they grow! He's the perfect mix of me and Brian. He's sleeping through the night and has never had any big problems. We are very blessed.

Brian and I are still going strong. We fight alot more than we used to. But we have alot more to deal with than we used to. Having a child is stressful. But its amazing all at the same time. I don't recommend having one unless you are completely prepared for anything and everything. But honestly, me and Brian fight more about money than anything else. I swear that stuff really is the root of all evil!

So thats a recap of my life as wife and mom. Now I'll start posting from today on. And be prepared! Your going to get the real me! And believe me, its not always pretty!!!