I'm going crazy right about!

It's been five hrs since Noah woke up and he's refusing to nap. I can't get anything done. I'm exhausted myself. I just want to cry. I'm not going to get to go out tonight...hell we might not even get to go trick or treating if he keeps this up. And of course not one damn person to babysit or give me a break. I hate the weekends sometimes. Oh, happy halloween, hope yours is better than mine.

Mad!

Sometimes it is really fn hard to be a mama. Like I love Noah, and he's such a blessing and my life is nothing without him. But Gah its so hard sometimes to sacrifice the things I wanna do. Like Halloween is saturday and I got invited to go out with some friends. I want to go soooooo bad! But of course Noah's grandparents still think they are young and are going out too and Brian has to go to work and so I once again have to sit my ass at home while everyone else it out and do nothing. Ugh! Why can't I just have one night of fun! Alone! If there's one thing I miss pre-baby its having the freedom to come and go as I please! Man I miss that!

I'm Such a Proud Mama!

Noah did so good at his 6 month checkup today. The nurse said she had an 8 month old that wouldn't even hold his own bottle yet. Noah is so advanced and learning something new every day. He took the shots like such a little tough guy. He stopped crying as soon as daddy picked him up. I just can't get over how amazing he is. I'm so proud of him. I've never been proud of myself but I sure am proud we created such a beautiful child. He's so amazing. Ok sorry for all the mushy, what can I say, he's precious!

Ahh Sleep!

Noah's been sleeping really good the past two nights and not waking up till almost 8 instead of the normal 6:30 or 7. I love it! Makes me feel so good to get that extra hour of sleep. I hope he keeps it up.

Feeling down lately...

Everything gets me so down lately. I'm so tired of being stuck in the house all the time. We never have any money to do anything. I'm so tired of having to rely on other people for things we need. I'm so sick of getting irritated at Brian for things I know is not his fault. I complain like this but then I don't want to get a job and leave Noah. So I'm basically being a hypocrite. It's just so hard. I want to be able to have the money to buy things for him and do things for him. I just miss when things were easy.

6 months-Good god what happened?!

Noah is 6 months today! It literally feels like we just brought him home! Like I seriously can't figure out where the time went! Makes me sad cuz I know time is just gonna fly by even faster as he gets older. :(

It's way to damn early!

So its 7:30 and Noah's been up since 6. Which is fine and dandy but Brian's up too. But of course its impossible for me to get any extra sleep because he doesn't hear Noah wake up and by the time I get up to get him and Brian wakes up I'm already awake and it takes at least an hour for me to fall back asleep. Grrr. I better get a nap today! haha yea right!