Sunny Saturday!

Its a beautiful chilly day here! The sun is shining so bright! Baby bear slept in today and is in a great mood! Today I am waiting on my new laptop to be delivered ( along with some new cloth diapers for baby bear!) and then later my mom and sister are coming up to go wedding shopping with me!! Yay! We are gonna look for flowers and decorations and such. Turns out we are having the wedding at Lexington Baptist Church! I am very excited we are doing it in a church. Now I don't have to worry about the weather..and I'm making my mom happy. She really wanted us to do it in a church. So have a beautiful sunny Saturday everyone! Here's a few pics of baby bear for you to enjoy!!

Blessed

So I follow this blog about a mommy of twins and triplets. The triplets are just infants and were born premature at 28 weeks. One of the sweet boys, Logan, went to be with the Lord on January 30. I read her blog of how she keeps going with her other children. And how she pushes just one more day. One of her posts talked about how a lady at a store asked her if both sets of twins were hers and she said ...well the babies aren't twins they are actually triplets. The woman asked her where the 3rd baby was and she couldn't bring herself to say he died, so she just told her he wasn't with them. And then she tells how her oldest daughter was screaming to stop at the hospital one day when they rode by because "she wanted to see Logan." The mom told her Logan wasn't there anymore, he was in heaven. And the little girl kept screaming how she wanted to go see him!

I can't imagine how hard that must be. To lose one of your precious babies and to still have to keep going for your other children and family. I wouldn't be able to get out of bed, let alone take care of other people. It has really made me step back and think about how selfish I am. I bitched and complained about how horrible it was to take care of Noah when he was sick with the stomach flu and an ear infection. One baby. Who was sick. For barely a week. How selfish can you get?! Gah I feel like such a horrible person now. I am so blessed to have a very happy and healthy baby. Who is rarely sick. And who is with me every day. I can only pray I never have to go through what that mother is going through. And I can only thank the Lord every day for giving me this sweet angel to love. He is my heart. My life. And I am beyond blessed to have my sweet Noah.

Rembering the old days

haha like they were even that long ago. But they feel forever ago. I love being a mom. I love being married. I wouldn't change it for anything. But sometimes I get mopey and want to get out. And I want to look like I used to...skinny and energetic. Now chasing a 9 month old around all day wears me out completely. I used to could dance the night away till 2 am and still go home and have plenty of energy. Of course, I was usually intoxicated. What I wouldn't give for the worries and cares I had back then. The extent of my worries was whether or not I'd have a ride to go downtown or which boy I was crushing on these days and if he was crushing on me. Life was simple then. But now..its simple too...and peaceful. And complete. And I like that.

A few firsts!

Noah's seen his first snow yesterday and today! He wasn't too crazy about it, but he's sick so that may have been why.

And tomorrow will be Noah's first Valentine's Day! He got a cute little card from Miss Lainey..a little friend from Baby Center ... so I guess you could call her his first Valentine! But I will always be his true valentine! He is my heart!

Week from Hell!

This week has been miserable for the Ferguson's. Starting Tuesday night Noah woke up vomiting. He only puked for about 3 hrs but needless to say we didn't sleep well that night. Then all day wed he had the runs and was just not his normal self. Thurs seemed better but I guess I was wrong, cuz last night he was up ALL night screaming his head off. We got maybe 4 total hrs of sleep..like an hr here and an hr there. It was awful. I am exhausted. So this morning we took him to the dr and it turns out he has an ear infection. Plus a horrible yeasty diaper rash from all the diarrhea. Poor guy is miserable. He's finally napping and we are waiting to get his antibiotics. We had our valentine's day date planned for today and my parents are coming up to see Noah so we decided to still go. Even though we are both running on empty. Hopefully it will be fun. Early bedtime for all of us tonight though!

On the bright side, Brian did a great job on my vday present! A beautiful , heartfelt card. A necklace, some chocolate, and a bra and panty from Victoria secret! Gotta love him!

Dear Aunt Flow,

Why did you have to return?? I didn't miss you one bit, I hope you know. And why did you have to bring bitchy, crampy, and hormonal with you? I know you only come once a month, but its been 18 months since you've been here and now you seem worse than I ever remember.  I am really hoping you only decide to stay for 3 or 4 days like you did before. I really think you should leave before Valentine's day. I'd like to spend that time with my hubby and NOT you. I will give you this much though...I was glad to see you, just at first, cuz Noah doesn't need a little sibling yet. But now that your here, feel free to go, and don't come back till next month. Please...pretty please...

Thanks,
Michelle