Mad!

Sometimes it is really fn hard to be a mama. Like I love Noah, and he's such a blessing and my life is nothing without him. But Gah its so hard sometimes to sacrifice the things I wanna do. Like Halloween is saturday and I got invited to go out with some friends. I want to go soooooo bad! But of course Noah's grandparents still think they are young and are going out too and Brian has to go to work and so I once again have to sit my ass at home while everyone else it out and do nothing. Ugh! Why can't I just have one night of fun! Alone! If there's one thing I miss pre-baby its having the freedom to come and go as I please! Man I miss that!